Thursday, July 10, 2008

Today My Mood Is . . . Sappy Mom . . .

I'm feeling a little down today.

I'm usually full of fun and witty ideas, but I'm just fresh out right now. I could post some pictures, but then I'd have to turn on the other computer where I store them. Since it's about 3 AM, I don't want to make any noise and wake up anyone. I'm not much of a sleeper. I never have been. If I sleep for 3 or 4 hours a night, I'm good all day long. I plan to get up at 7:45 so I've got a few hours. I should be OK.

Actually, I know it sounds silly, but I'm miserable a little sad that we're taking a break from schoolwork. I LOVE teaching Baby Boy, and while he relishes the breaks, I loathe them. I've never thought of myself much as the teacher. I consider myself more of the "coordinator." I try to provide healthy and usable resources. I like to guide him in the general and preferable direction and see how he "goes" with it. Anyway, this summer, more than any other summer . . . as the junior year approaches . . . I've been thinking that my time with him will be ending soon. He has a very independent spirit and I know he'll want to get away from me go away to college. Shoot, we're already considering community college classes for next year.

I really don't want to be one of those cling-on Moms who doesn't know when enough is enough, but frankly when I'm talking about Baby Boy, enough is never enough and too much is still never enough. He's the light of my existence. I want him to be/feel/know so much better than I ever was/felt/knew growing up. I'm not sure what's going on with me; I guess I'm feeling a little pathetic nostalgic.

I haven't been working much lately. Summer months are slow. I guess with us taking a break from school on top of that, I may just have a little too much free time on my hands. Too much free time tends to dampen the mood for me. I like being a busy bee. Of course, when I am busy, I like to complain about it. I'm from a family with two military parents, complaining is what I do best, LOL.

Ooohhh look at me, I think I'm cheering up already.

Anyway, since my post is such a bore bummer today, I did want to mention that RegularMom has an excellent post on her blog right now regarding healthier eating and a healthier life in general. If you don't stop by her blog often, you should. It's a keeper.

Anyway, thanks for listening. Maybe after The Young and the Restless some rest, I'll be in better spirits.

Until next time . . .


RegularMom said...

Dear RegularAdoptedSis:

Hang in there. Many hugs to you. I'm not where you're at in terms of teaching older kids, but I guess I'll be there soon.

But I have been in a bit of a funk for a few weeks. And I'm a raging insomniac as well. So, I'm right there with ya.

Thanks for the link and the kind words, too. :)

Ami said...

It's not easy to watch them grow and go.

But what you've done is give him the absolute best of you. No matter what, you have that.

He's a lucky boy.. er, young man.
I keep having to correct that exact phrase when I talk about my own son.

Hard to change. :)

Freakmom said...

You almost hit on what I was going to suggest. Why don't you take Baby Boy's break time and spend it learning something or reading something you want to. Possibly something you want to share with him later. Or something just for you.

What's been hanging on your to do list for some time now? (NO cleaning projects allowed as the answer.)

Michelle said...

Awww...this post breaks my heart and makes me laugh (about the Young and The Restless) at the same time.

I'm a sappy Mom, too - and I am in denial that my kids will ever grow up/leave home. Nope - that's simply not allowed in this house! ;-) maybe it will...but I'll be very sad, too.

You are giving him the very BEST right now just by being there for him, and so when Baby Boy does leave the nest, he will FLY on beautiful WINGS - thanks to you!

Hang in there'll be okay!
(And if you're still feeling blue - I'd recommend chocolate. It always works for me!) ;-)


Rachel said...

hope you feel better soon! and I see you don't have any pics up either. :P

Jason said...

I seriously do not know what boredom is like. Sometimes I just wish things would slow wayyyyy down, but they never seem to do that.

You seem like a fantastic mom and teacher!

Heather said...

Aww, I'm sorry you're feeling down. I can understand the wish that this wonderful experience could last just a bit longer. It's hard when you put so much energy into something and then realize it will someday end, and you think, "NOW what the hell am I supposed to do??"

I focus on pride (I don't care how sinful it is). Homeschooling is sooo wonderful for me because of the sense of pride it gives me. I'm proud of my children for learning all they've learned. I'm proud that I've facilitated that learning. And one day, I can be just as proud that they have grown into wonderful, successful adults - and proud that I helped them get there. I think that pride in our children extends way beyond their childhood, forever.

I hope you are feeling a bit more upbeat and energetic.

SabrinaT said...

Sorry you are out of spirits:(
I have my oldest on tape swearing he will never leave home!

HA HA! I am a military brat and then married to it. I have the same feeling. I HAVE to be busy, or I almost feel lost....
Hope you feel better soon!!!!!!!

Rebel said...

*Sigh* I am right where you are and could have written this post myself. This is the first summer we have completely stopped schooling since we started homeschooling. With KJ being on his trip...I'm a basket case. Maybe I should drive down and we can have a good cry together. ;-)

:)De said...

When my oldest turned 13, I was so upset at the tought of him growing older that I banned the word "teenager" in my home. LOL He and our relatives started using the term "beanager" whenever I was around, but then laughed very hard (they said with me, but I was not laughing). The prize at the end is that we have great kids that had the greatest gift we could give... ourselves.

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